what if i cut my hair rrreally short? i’m very insecure about my skin because it would be more uncovered, but i’m thinking about it and
when i feel both low and nervous i put on my earphones and play the loudest music i know at the loudest volume i can to see if the noise can cover all my thoughts.
tonight i wore my least favourite dress and went out for a walk, walked as fast as i could, asked for a cigarette, tripped twice, with both my feet. i was so nervous i’ve bitten the back of my hand on my dermatitis so hard that it has swelled and became even more disgusting.
when i came back home i saw a cockroach in the bathroom and i hate cockroaches so much